Suicide

As someone who has Bipolar I can’t agree with Alan Brazil (talksport presenter) on his comments on Suicide , but as I support free speech I have to respect his right to voice his views. Mr Brazil is not the first person to have a low opinion of those to take their own life. The church has been raging against those that take the ultimate decision for years. Personally I have no problem with people committing suicide as long as they do it in a way that doesn’t impact others. Yes I know family and friends will always be impacted, but those people should support their loved one’s in their decision. I’m talking about those that jump in front of trains etc, those that unwittingly involved other’s into their demise and so quite literally or at least mentally destroy another person’s life, in the taking of theirs. No one can ever understand what it is like to be someone else, so to pass judgement on anyone who takes their own life is to make comment on a situation without any of the facts.

Taking all human emotion out of the subject in a over populated world government and policy makers should be supporting suicides not condemning it. If someone really does not wish to live anymore what good can society really get from forcing them to live. Yes people will always throw up the argument that people really don’t want to die, and that suicide is simply a cry for help. I’m sure their are a few stupid people that want to play mind games with others emotions but those that intend to end their life are far from stupid and they are definitely not cowards.

Despite battling depression at times, I happen to love life but I know that will not always be the case. There will come a time when life will become simply a holding cell to the inevitable and at that point my patience for ‘just living’ will no doubt wear thin. Would I take my own life if all hope was gone? Absolutely, will it be anytime soon ? Absolutely not, is it anyone else’s business? Again absolutely not.

Robin Williams committed suicide and I respect that as his decision, a death is a death how it happens is immaterial. Mr Williams mental health is no ones concern nor is his drug addiction or anything else in his life. We should, if we wish honour his passing and give thanks to the joy and laughter he brought to the world.

So your welcome to your opinion on suicide, this is mine. For me it’s just another way to do what we all do in the end and that is just die.

One final word, Alan should not have to resign from his job simply because his opinion offends, it is up to his bosses to determine if people listen to his show for his views or simply to hear sport info. I personally am left with a sour taste in the mouth every time someone is forced to fall on their sword just for expressing an opinion, no matter how ugly. I have no wish to live in a sterile PC world were no one is offended because no one ever says anything.

Everything matters & nothing matters – back to basics.

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Some years ago I came to the realisation that both everything and nothing matters, I know that’s really confusing, so let me explain myself as simply as possible. This is the way I see non duality and not as many other do.

The fact is every thought we have is a perception . Even the most spiritual people are often unable to cast aside prejudgment’s and conceived ideas. People can love each other and live in peace for years and never agree, but at some point as painful as it is we all have to make decisions that will effect our life and the lives of others. Everyday we all display preferences even if they are as simple as having a glass of water over a cup of tea.

Now in order to understand my version of non duality you have to be able to grasp the concept of life being like a jigsaw. In a jigsaw each piece plays a role but seldom upon inspection makes much sense on it’s own. Sure it may have great form and colour, it may even hold clues and wisdoms, but no matter how captivating that piece is it will always be simply one thread in the vast tapestry. To draw any real conclusions from just pieces of a jigsaw is human nature but ultimately pointless. For what may look like parts of a sky may be a ocean or simply a garden pond.

So when I speak or write about anything I’m usually speaking about pieces and seldom the whole jigsaw which can not be viewed or known from our limited view point.

I’m sure many people will say this is just a clever side step as ‘oneness’ can not be proved and yes they have a point, but not a truth. You can and do make judgements on the world around you, often this is simply just to stay alive which we perceive as very important. The key for me is not to think for one minute i’m more or less than anyone else, I neither right or wrong, i’m just a simple piece in a jigsaw and I can like it or lump it, it matters not.

This is why I so often write ‘life just is’ or ‘universally speaking’ i do it just to hammer home the fact that I ultimately don’t know, and neither do you, or anyone those in society perceive as wise

Live life as you wish or as your told

You can do what you want today, buy a chocolate bar or blow your own brains out, it really matters not. You can change your piece of the jigsaw a great deal and the universe will simply reshape it’s self around your actions, unaffected . You can live your life to the word of your god, or simply make it up as you go along it matters not universally, but to your friends, family, county and country it may appear to matter a great deal. So I guess it’s all down to you and who you thinks important. I do not believe anyone is right, no one knows the ultimate truth people simply make judgement calls which they think will help them get by in this world or the next.

So for me Morality and what is good or bad is just a weak human summation on a small piece of time and space nothing more nothing less …Our views shift century to century once old men married 14 year old girls, once it was ok to sleep with the same sex, then it wasn’t and now it is depending where you live in the world. Some people say our ancestors where very very wise, others say they were very very stupid. Duality is in Constant state of flux, non duality is frame in which all this messing about goes on.

I still have duality in my life I’d rather eat chocolate than horse shit

It’s a fact Nondualism is a fringe belief system, probably because it really holds no answers and can be rather uncomfortable at times when people get all emotional about all the ‘bad’ things in life. Most people want clear define lines of good and bad so consequentially people that talk about ‘oneness’ are often seen as barking mad or tree hugging hippy types.

Within non duality their are those that claim to be so really at ‘one’ they have no preface on anything and if that’s true for them cool, but that is definitely not me. I see duality everywhere , but i feel/ believe that everything is linked and a part of a great Universal Whole or a divine matrix if you like. I can grasp that their is universally speaking nothing to do and no where to go, that up and down are just judgement calls based upon a current position and not fixed points.  I know that nothing I do is right or wrong, good or bad, but everyday I know I take actions that in my limited sphere of influence can keep me alive or make me dead.

While death it would seem is simply the result of life and the reshaping of energy, for now I would rather be alive. So daily I do my best avoid death as far as i can I step out the way of trucks and avoid touching live cables or pissing off people with guns. One day I will conclude that life is no longer worth living for me, maybe because of ill health or an oppressive situation or government. I will then take action if possible to cease to live in the most pain free and convenient method possible.

So whats the point?

Well obviously apart from being born (done that) multiplying (didn’t do that) and dieing (on my list of things to do one day) life has no point that we can see. Despite all the books and all the thinking not to mention millions of years of struggle life it would seem is apparently pointless, which really can seem at times like a real buzz kill. Then again as we can’t see the whole jigsaw who knows, maybe just like all those small cells inside us we do a really important job in the universe, even if it is just killing planets. Maybe one day someone or something will hold our piece of the universe in their gaze and say WOW! did you see what all those funny little thing have done………or then again maybe they won’t.

So worry if that feels good, suffer if that feels right.. rage against the machine knock yourself out, or simply fall asleep on a beach with a good book. Do what you want, say what you like, just don’t ever tell me how to live my life or claim to have all the answers ……unless you do lol ….you know you don’t right :)….. it’s ok no one does.

Does reincarnation exist?

I would like to start off with my favourite quote:

“Man is the only animal whose own existence is a problem that he has to solve.”

I truly believe that in this quote lies mankind’s greatest dilemma. That said I do enjoy pondering the impossible to answer.  I believe our growth as a race lies in the understanding that no matter our insight, religious or scientific stand points what we hold to be truth is ultimately just theory. Our personal perceptions are ultimately always made from a very ‘very’ limited view of the universe and the big picture. To say that man knows nothing is a greater truth than to say he knows anything at all.

So with that as my disclaimer as it were, l stumble forth into the maze of reincarnation.

For me on one level everything in the universe is reincarnating all the time as our bodies and in fact everything breaks down and returns to the earth or cosmos .  We are born again and again in many different ways as food for micro organisms and so into that world wide and never ending food chain. Parts of us return to water and air and as such we may roam free for millennia before once again making up the bodies of beings, planets or stars. While it may not make for great dinner table talk our bodies go forth forever and most of the time its just as food or energy. As they say we are born of the stars or to put it in a less dreamy manner we are made from the stuff of stars. So everything in my view has been and will be forever and ever..

What could be greater than is? A universe (or multiverse) that remoulds and rebirths it’s self forever. What more could we ask for? Is it not comfort enough to know we will become more than we can ever know? From the beating heart of a robin to the dust on the horizon of a planet we don’t even know exists.

The fact is for the ego the above is not enough, as it does not offer a future for it’s self. It offers no continuation for the kingdom in which the ego lives, it suggests the ego is ultimately doomed. So like the idea of Oneness (we are all ultimately linked within the matrix of life) the ego rejects the concept. The above kind of reincarnation is pointless the ego demands more, for the ‘I’ it demands nothing less than to be at the centre of the universe forever.

So as I am truthful enough to say I haven’t a clue about anything, let’s say that our spirit or our life experiences goes on when we die. That sounds possible I guess and it embraces the egos need to go on.

Could all that we have been in life be uploaded in pure energy form to the great matrix? (source, god call it what you will ) Then this info, our lifetime is processed and maybe even downloaded back into a new body. This for me is as equally as wonderful as the first idea and could in fact run along side the above. The universe can now be seen as the ultimate recycler, bodies in the green bin, thoughts and life-force energy in the white bin, thank you.

While my life experiences may be reborn deep inside the knowing of another body that other body will not be me. Then the ‘I am’ that is ‘ Aric Voss’ is a one time deal, a limited edition of one, as are you. Never in the history of the whole of everything will there ever be another you or me. How cool is that, they will never see the likes of us again, ok it is a little sad if your really loving this life time. Also I’m not totally sure it meets the egos needs, as its great domain is just reduced to the deep dark memory banks of someone or somethings else’s mind.

Now things start to get a little mind bending if they haven’t already.
It could be said and in fact I’m going to say it as have others …we are reincarnating all the time in this very life time:-

I know I was a baby, an infant, a teen but I know also I’m not that person any more. Once I had my heart broken so bad I thought I would never get over it, now like so much of my past when I think of it, it’s just like watching a rerun of some old movie with actors whose faces you know, but are ultimately nameless.

I have reincarnated in this the body (like Dr who) time and time again over my 47 years, not one of my cells remains from my birth  As you will all know we are told we have a whole new body every seven or so years…..So who was born by another name is now rebrand as Aric Voss, but every year month day, I decide if the ‘Aric Voss’ show goes on or stops. For as thousands of teacher have said now is the only time of Power, so in this now I can choose to be who I want. If I was so driven Aric could die as my birth name did and a another new persona could be born. We are given the chance every minute, hour, day, month, year to change, to be reborn to resurrect a new. The problem is society demands we are who we are, a whole life time; it says we must remain this collection of screw ups and victories from our past until death. This is lifes most disempowering perception and one what forces people into the dark places of the mind, where suicide can at times seem like the only way out.

For me the truth in this life is we reincarnate when we wish, we play this role that is our life as long as it serves us. This collection of experiences, dark, light, good and bad are our choice. Only the weakest actor stays with the play that no one comes to watch. The divine matrix (god everything call it what you like) in my mind has no knowledge of dualism. Only we see the world as up or down, right or left, good or bad, right or wrong, hot or cold, alive or dead. Only we believe we can’t change can’t reincarnate. For the universe everything just is, it’s all perfect and whole forever.

So ultimately we write the script that we want to watch, if we want to believe we are small and powerless we are. If want to believe no one will ever know who we were once we die, they won’t. We can believe we need to be punished for our past acts and we will be. We can believe we are part of god and straight way we are. Reincarnation starts and ends when you think it should and no one other than yourself will ever change your mind on that.

The real questions should be not does reincarnation happen but do we deserve to be reincarnated? I say this not from a moral stand point, but from that stand point that asks have you truly proved you can live life? As the saddest mutterings on a death bed must be ‘I wish I’d lived more’. How many times have you heard ‘maybe in the next life’ Is that’s all reincarnations is, some kind of idea we created to make us feel better for not living this life the way we wanted. There is no time limit on dreams and no age limit on change never ever wait for the next life as long as your still in this one.

Problem Reaction Solution

You don’t have to be a full blown conspiracy geek to see that Problem, Reaction, Solution is at work everywhere. What is it? Well in short ‘the powers that be’ want to enforce something that in normal everyday life would not be acceptable to the common man. It is usually but not always something like a law that would chip away at our everyday freedoms. In order to get people to go with what ‘they’ wish to achieve a situation must be created that will out rage the public enough that they will demand for something to be done. Then the powers offer up the solutions and people agree as they simply don’t want to have to deal with the ‘problem’ again. So via manipulation governments or indeed the power behind them get what they want, we loose a few more civil Liberties in return for the perception of safety. It is a fact once any law is enforced it is seldom repealed.

The Ravings of a Mad Man.

Anyone at any time that questions implementation of these laws that are for out apparent safety are usually, labelled as trouble makers Mad or worse. So any meaningful public debate is often sidelined. Those that think differently to the prevailing wisdom of the time have always been persecuted throughout history in a myriad of ways. David Icke has always been seen as one of societies loonies, many people that would described themselves as open minded or even fringe thinkers often scoff at what he says. That said not giving a committed ear to the likes of Mr Icke could be seen as ‘throwing the baby out with the bath water.’ Within the massive web of conspiracy, deception and alien manipulation their are nuggets of wisdom and truth that few other people in public life have the guts to discuss. I’m sure many of us fall outside the barrier of what is deems good, proper and sane but I sure we all still believe our points and views are valid. Discrediting people is just another tool used by the powers that be within the framework of ‘problem reaction solution’. If we do not at least listen to apposing views on all subjects then we will and often do miss the fact that the presented ‘truth’ is simply a manipulation to justify someones crusade or personal betterment.

Trust no one

Agent Mulder may have been the one most linked to that phrase ‘Trust No One’ but he was was not the first to utter it, he definitely won’t be the last. Over the past years, the general publics framework of naive trust has begun to disintegrate before our very eyes. No longer do we hold Prime ministers, MPs Government officials or even our media celebrities in such high esteem. For all have been shown to be wanting, when it comes to honesty, all have been shown to be fallible and human just like us. ‘Trust no one’ like ‘question everything’ does not mean we can not move forward in life because everyone and everything is out to get us, it simply means nothing and no one is ever what they seem and that we must never become blind to this. There are no perfect people, There is no absolute truth other than there is no absolute truth.

So what to do about Problem Reaction Solution?

If you can see that many of the problems that face mankind are of our own doing and the mass media are demanding to do something about it you should very seriously look at the answers being offered. If these ‘solution’ include new restrictions and laws, we owe it to ourselves and the people of the future the make sure these ‘solution’ don’t in fact make life worse for the majority of us. That is the Key the need of the many must always out way the need of the few. Our freedom be it on the internet or in the real world is under attack everyday and those that attack it will use the most persuasive of arguments. The upshot is this, if we are not free then yes the number of crimes and deaths will go down but is that really a price worth paying for? I for one think not.

We must all simply be aware that no matter what we do or no matter how we do it someone somewhere wants us to stop. Apathy and being whipped up into a media driven lynching must be avoided. We must keep our eyes open for ‘Problem Reaction Solution’ for it may indeed be the very darkest of all societies problems.

Finding your happiness

While I fully subscribe to the idea that we are ultimately one (universally linked). I do believe we all have different life purposes and plans that stimulate and make life on the planet function. Everyone is important and everyone has a place. For many it can take 20, 30 or in my case 40 years to figure out what that purpose or place in the world is, sadly some never do. But when you finally do, all of life aligns around you and carries you forward.

The answers too many of life’s decisions are not really found in the head which we all know is driven by the ego but on the level of subtle feelings. Sadly most of the time these feelings are so subtle you can’t even feel them (internally hear them) over the roar of every day life. That is when the taking of a few minutes out, can save you days, months and even lifetimes of problems.

How many times have you set your heart on something or even someone, only to time and time again come up against resistance on your quest. I have come to know that if something becomes too hard to achieve it really wasn’t meant to happen. In the past I would simply climb over these obstacles and not notice the warning signs. Then without fail when ever I finally obtained the desired thing? That’s when my problems really began, I would be totally unaware that all this time I had been swimming against the flow of life. I just couldn’t understand why every time I got something I thought I wanted, more Problems would unfold than I ever had before, conflicts, stress, debt and ultimately at some point loss and heart ache.

Then I would kid myself by saying that I’d really learnt my lesson on that, and go straight off in search of some other unobtainable item to make my world complete. My personal life was just a non relenting struggle that seemed to drain my life energy away.

Then finally one day I woke up to the fact that life really didn’t have to be so hard, this constant grasping for things was pointless and making for a very bumpy ride. I had to just go with the flow and stop listening to the demanding and ultimately clueless ego.

Now one thing I think is important to point out, is that going with the flow does not mean your just doing what others want and being pulled along by the great tide of common thinking. Your life flow may at times join with others but ultimately it is separate and special to you. You must pay attention to your feelings and not always assume the majority has any more clue than you. For example have you ever had that feeling that you are totally alone in a large group or crowd, well I believe that is your true feelings letting you know that these people are not for you and it’s time to move on

Life is rather uncomplicated we are born, we live and we die. Everything else that attempts to slow stop or divert that process is ultimately futile, so rather than spending the whole time grasping and missing everything, why not just layback, take pleasure in the view and see where the flow of life takes you. I’m living proof that my life flow has become far more interesting than anything my ego ever had to offer.

Thoughts on the G word

No other word on the planet has provoked so many different emotions as the word God. This word has instilled as much love and peace, as it has hate and war.

The comprehension of the incomprehensible has challenged and beguiled the hearts and minds of men and women since time began.

More money has been raised in the name of God than for any other reason.

Both the aggressor and the aggressed claim God is on their side.

To some the concept of God is simply an outdated notion followed by fools; God plays no part in these peoples lives. To others, God is with them every second of every day. They exist to spread the word to those who see God as an outdated notion followed by fools.

Rational discussion on God it would appear is almost impossible, to attempt to do so can leave educated men and women scrapping like children in a play ground over a doll.

Once most men feared God, now most men fear those that believe in him.

Many would say fanatics from both religion and science have made this a very dangerous world. In their obsessions to prove or disprove the existence of God they have tipped mankind closer and closer to oblivion. Even the most impartial of human watchers must question. How the  most God-filled can act in the most God-less of ways.

My personal view…

 When I take out my grandfathers’ pocket watch to marvel at its workmanship, seldom do I wonder how it was made or wish to take it apart to see how it works. Nor do I think on its creator, I simply am happy to know it exists and give thanks for my time with it. My View of the universe is exactly the same. I do however believe that Man’s Knowledge of everything seen and unseen, known and unknown is so minuscule, that for us to proclaim certainties on anything is the height of arrogance and shows a blind certainty that is unbecoming of both science and spirituality .

Contemplations on the Folly of Man

I turned this up a few days ago and thought i would post it again. It is a set of personal observations inspired by many hours of contemplation on the repetitive mistakes of mankind. Despite our race, colour or creed we are all transfixed by the idea that life would be perfect if we could just do this or that. It’s not sexy but ‘Life just is’, all the commotion and emotion is just window dressing that has been employed to sow discontent and create a workforce of desperate and disenfranchised people.

Below I state an observation and unfold it a little on the next line

Despite all world and personal history has taught us we still Seek comfort and happiness in stuff.
Material junk clutters homes, minds and landfills.

Look for validation in crowds.
Scratch the surface do the famous look happy?

Flutter around the glow of despair.
Watch, read, listen and discuss the news.

Believe salvation is found in another.
Friends, lovers, priests and politicians.

Mine for answers in scripture and books
Dissect literature in order to support our cause.

Wrap ourselves in blankets of noise.
Most fear the silence where peace resides.

Try to build a world around solid facts?
Science is no more solid than anything else.

Rage against our place in the world.
Scenery seldom heals a misplaced perception.

Fight against everything we hate.
What you oppose grows.

Deny who we are.
The result of billions of years of Universal energy in flux

Seek wisdom.
Self wisdom is overlooked in favour of something more exotic.

Defend our beliefs
Billions of hours have been wasted on hateful arguments, debates and Wars to defend our ephemeral notions such as these that give our ego driven mind a kingdom in which to reside .

We all do at least some of these, even if most of us really should better and that is the true folly of Man.

Don’t mention Overpopulation

Note the following blog is on a topic few wish to discuss or even raise, I believe it is the most important subject facing mankind today. I fully understand that when it comes to the subject of overpopulation every possible solution will upset or outrage someone.

Mankind will cull any species that it deems is having a negative impact on the planet or other creatures. Yet no one dare utter any methods to stop us eating and drinking ourselves out of existence because all options are political dynamite.

Maybe Beyonce would record a new version of her song ‘Should have put a condom on it’ in order to raise awareness that the planet doesn’t need yet more children. Like hell she would, no one would dare. Sterilisation, Abortion Euthanasia these are all words people avoid like the very plague that is long over due to cut us down to size.

People want Kids it is genetically our only purpose, but some of us have decided not to have them because we simply can not see a quality of life in the future worth having if we do. People separate their plastic and cardboard in order to make a difference but that’s chicken feed to the ultimate green action not having children. I don’t care if you believe in global warming or cooling but even the biggest thick head on the planet must understand Earth can not sustain a ever growing population.

So what to do ? Well it seems that generally speaking we refuse to believe death is a part of the circle of life. We demand that our doctors in the UK keep everyone alive no matter what the quality of life they are forced to endure . As sick as it may sound we can’t even look to World War to reduce our numbers, our weapons have become far to effective for their own good and are generally to destructive to the environment of our world, So options are very limited not to mention ugly. We either agree to stop having children on mass for a given time to create a breathing space for the planet, or we start forced mass sterilisation. I can here the screams already you sicko you nazi etc etc. Unless we can talk about this depressing subject in a level headed way and take proactive action your children or your children’s children’s will face mass starvation anyway ,or at ‘best’ a Mad Max style world of fighting over dwindling reserves of food, fuel,space and water.

The unspoken truth is that most people really don’t give a crap about their children or their children’s children they just want what they want. They want children in the same way they want the next BMW or smartphone. Sure they will never admit it but lets face it for most in the western world Children are often just another attempt to fill their personal void or give some reason to their lives perceived pointless existence.

When you see the poor starving people on the TV the best thing we could do is move in and euthanise them all, but that would be evil, sick and twisted, far better to try to keep then alive so they can fight and struggle always dancing on the edge of oblivion that’s the humane thing to do. We keep the sick and terminally ill alive to suffer just as long as we don’t have to see it first hand. We drug our terminally ill as far as legally possible so they won’t suffer as much. What exactly is Humane about given a few more hours, days, weeks to a human struggling for life in a bed?. The Truth is we dare not or legally can not do the Humane thing and simply and respectfully put them to sleep. Our laws are an arse because they are made by fit and well people who believe they will live forever, not those riddled with pain tossing and turning in a piss filled bed. So we end up treating our beloved pets when it comes to pain and death better than our own Kin.

So in truth as we can not even mention overpopulation we have to leave the problem to the Planet, God’s or random space rocks or an effective plague. That way when millions die we can all cry and weep at the loss, while secretly given thanks, as we know those deaths where sadly needed and at least we had no hand in it.

Search this topic on the web and you will find websites that actually advocate suicide in order to save the planet. I dare say extremist eco warrior somewhere are trying to produce some culling pill or worse. I don’t want to die right now, but their will come a time when living will have lost it’s appeal or simply have become to painful, can we not at least start solving our over population problem by giving those that want a way out a quick and relatively painless option.

Every Trekkie knows ‘the needs of the many out way the needs of the few’. The Question is who are the many and who are the few? Would a billion, two billion dyeing save the future of humanity? and if so for how long. Who right now on planet earth really wants to live and who really wants to die?

We all know It’s pointless me going on as the topic is to Taboo, a so we will carry on destroying our home until someday all that will be left is a husk, On which the living will finally and truly envy the dead.

A Final thought

Modern Man is in denial of so many things, and generally displays a complete apathy to any topic that doesn’t effect it’s limited circle of important friends or family. We hide behind the sofa when it comes to all the difficult subjects of life, we hope someone else will figure it out and take the blame if it goes wrong or is deemed unpopular. We Like the biblical Peter deny our own believes more than three times daily as we don’t wish to offend others, or fear being seen out of step with conventional politically correct thinking. We are all ultimately living an unsustainable lie, our only hope is we will die before it gets to bad, or we actually have to stare into the eyes of the future generation that we have so obviously failed. So separate your paper and plastic if it makes you feel good but don’t think your buying your kids any more time. Your children need, all humanity needs real action NOW, but in truth it is the action none of us have the balls to take.

A world wide pragmatic approach must me agreed on and implemented soon, but be sure whatever is agreed most people won’t like it.

Originally posted May 2013

It’s ok to say Life Sucks

Some days you can wake up and nothing you try goes right. Sure you could put a positive spin on whatever happens, but sometimes it just better to say ‘Today sucked’ and move on it’s just life happening and it’s seldom personal.

Take George, one day he woke up full of the joys of spring, his Jousting team had won a match last night so he was really feeling good about himself. Then on the way to a sword practice a large or should i say humongous dragon came out of nowhere and started call him names, like shorty and pepper pot head. George didn’t want to fight the dragon, he like animals and had been a vegan for five years, but the dragon kept up the name calling. When the dragon finally got to the ‘Your mothers so fat jokes’ George finally snapped and the rest as they say is history